Safe to say...

So, here lately, I have been trying to make the most of my days off. You know, since I won't have any of those mid-week come June 28th. I've been getting up around 8:30, sipping coffee, spending some time in the Word and with the Lord. Then once I'm awake and geared up for the day, here's what I might do/be doing: go run, go to the pool, run some errands, return phone calls, meet with people I haven't seen in a while, drive, take pictures, cook, etc. It's been incredible, actually. To have that freedom. And I am truly grateful for this life that the Lord has allowed me to live for the past three years. But as I have recently stated, this chapter will be closing soon. And I think it's safe to say that I'm a little scared. I feel confident that maybe ten of my friends actually read this blog, so I'll share my fears here with little worry that I am pouring my heart out to the world.

I fear that I won't know the answers, that I'll be tired more often than not, that I will let my time in clinic pass me by without truly sharing the Lord and His Word with my patients, that I will miss something and a family's life will never be the same, that I will be viewed as a young professional who's not sure what she's doing, that I will struggle to be confident in my new role, that I will come home most days and wish that I was still working 3 days a week in Labor and Delivery, that it might be 10 more years before I know beyond a shadow of a doubt who I am and what I'm doing here.

But, bigger than those fears is my God who has led me to this place. And that's really all I need to know. There are not a lot of words that pass through these lips that will be remembered forever or have stood the test of time, but those, my friend, will.

It's safe to say that I am merely a woman, that I will never have everything figured out, and that I will always struggle to find and exercise the strength and faith it takes to be the woman He is creating me to be. But it is also safe to say that my God is bigger than that. Than me. Than this life we call home for a moment. He is all we need. Incomparably and incomprehensibly so. That's pretty safe to say, my friend.

"We have not stopped praying for you since the first day we heard about you. In fact, we always pray that God will show you everything he wants you to do and that you may have all the wisdom and understanding that his Spirit gives. Then you will live a life that honors the Lord, and you will always please him by doing good deeds. You will come to know God even better.His glorious power will make you patient and strong enough to endure anything, and you will be truly happy. I pray that you will be grateful to God for letting you have part in what he has promised his people in the kingdom of light.

God rescued us from the dark power of Satan and brought us into the kingdom of his dear Son, who forgives our sins and sets us free.

Christ is exactly like God, who cannot be seen. He is the first-born Son, superior to all creation. Everything was created by him, everything in heaven and on earth, everything seen and unseen, including all forces and powers, and all rulers and authorities.

All things were created by God's Son, and everything was made for him. God's Son was before all else, and by him everything is held together. He is the head of his body, which is the church. He is the very beginning, the first to be raised from death, so that he would be above all others. God himself was pleased to live fully in his Son. And God was pleased for him to make peace by sacrificing his blood on the cross, so that all beings in heaven and on earth would be brought back to God."

Colossians 1: 9-20